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by Aditya Mankad 0 Comments

I come from a bomb shelter
made with a lining of books.
I come from a place where
metaphors are served
for breakfast.
I come from a house where people
would run to save a shelf
in case of a disaster.
I come from a place where
we weep to pages instead of
I come from a childhood where
words melted in my mouth more
often than cotton candy.
I come from a place where we
popped verses like sleeping pills
on a tough night;
Religiously and a little too many.
So don’t ask how I turned to poetry.
How could I not?

Story of a Suicide

Story of a Suicide

What comes to your mind when you hear “Story of a Suicide”?

What’s the first thing?

Is it a vague memory from a movie; of a college student hanging, with “I Quit” written hurriedly on the wall?
Is it a couple drowning in a river because they cannot stay together, and tragedy being, that one of them survives?
Is it a dimly lit room; closed from inside and a river of “things unsaid” coming out from someone’s veins in the form of blood?
Is it of a boy or a girl who has managed to open up themselves because somehow that felt easier than opening up to their parents?
Is it of a body that has a revolver in the hand, turning as cold as the winter winds, as the soul and unfulfilled dreams leave it forever?
Or is it an aerial view from the 10th floor; and a body forming abstract patterns from the blood which surprisingly makes more sense than the world made to the body.

Who is the person?
You know them?

Is it your best friend who shares everything but not what hurts them the most?
Is it your parent who is mentally and emotionally drained and feels suffocated?
Is it your classmate who gets picked on a lot and the pressure on the carotid arteries somehow pains less than the pounding to the heart and blows to the ego?
Or is it you?

Yesterday I read a book called “The Story of a Suicide”

I strongly suggest you to read the book.

What’s it about?

It is the story of 4 lives. Hari, Mani, Sam & Charu. It is a story of how everyone is waging their own battle and how everyone goes through a turmoil of emotion. It is a story of love, betrayal, revenge, deceit and lot other emotions.

It addresses issues like Depression, Homosexuality, and Cybercrime.

Some chapters like “Caesar meets Draupadi“, “Trojan” and “Tigress Skinned” gives you a fresh perspective about the emotions that the children of this generation face and makes it a very interesting read.

Oh, and you MUST read the “How do I?” section in the sidebar. It gives you an advice about dealing with the situations that you as a young individual are likely to face.

Here are some links from the book:

How Do I?


Let me tell you this,

IT IS NOT a poorly written book. Each chapter has a title which made me feel something. Each illustration makes you stare at it for a while and lets the emotions that it has, seep into you.

I am going to put in a few excerpt from the book so that you get an idea about the style of writing and some idea about the context.

Dear World,

I am going to die.

I am leaving. I am tired of fighting. I am tired of struggling to survive. I have finally made a choice today. Yes, I give up.

Have you ever felt lonely in a crowd, claustrophobic when alone? Now I hate everything around me. I do not understand human beings any more. They are too complex for my silly brain. I do not know what sounds I need to make for them to like me, love me, trust me.

Sounds did I say? Words have become very confusing, so I’m staying primal.

There are many gripping episodes but I thought I’d let you catch you when you least expect them.

Why read the book?

I will give you three reasons.

  • The writing style is amazing. chances are you’ll relate to a part of each character.
  • The Illustrations! OH… MY… GOD. I looked at all the illustrations at least thrice. They; as I said,makes you feel, immensely.
  • If you are not a regular reader and somehow don’t feel like buying the book; don’t worry. It is free and you can read it here.

Why should you not read it?

If you are homophobic or a feminazi or both, Don’t bother reading. You’ll not get it.
Oh, and fuck you.

Here are my views on the topics that the book covers.


It is real, It is terrifying and It is not funny. You’re likely to face depression if you are under constant physical, emotional and psychological pressure. It is not that rare and it is okay. Consult. Keeping all that negativity inside is not going to do you any good. Is is okay to talk about it. There would be days when you don’t feel like talking to anyone and will skip meals. There would be days wherein you’ll feel shitty and everyone will sound irritating. Go to your happy place. Do the things you love to do. Whenever I feel low, I turn to the things that soothe me. Chai. Music. Poetry. Do that.


Your sexual preference is only and ONLY your choice. You are a warrior like everyone else. Don’t be too hard on yourself (If you’re doing that) and do not take homophobes seriously. Share your concerns with your friends and family. If your parents cannot come to terms with the fact that you are homosexual, then it is NOT your fault. Tell them that you’re gay and not a rapist. Tell them that there was no problem in their upbringing. In fact, they should be proud that they have taught their child to be fearless and courageous. Tell them that love goes beyond the concepts of society and religion.


You are highly likely to be a victim of cyber crimes. Do not take it lightly. Report every obscene message and vulgar comments. It is very easy for hackers to hack into your social media accounts. Be aware of things happening around you. Stay educated. Get to know the laws. Cyber Crime is as much of a crime as theft and otherwise.
The problem is… that we; the torch bearers of this generation fail to be emotionally stable.

It is true.

One comment on the way you look or the way you act and we go tumbling down the lane of depression.

One tweet or Instagram post or a facebook upload goes unnoticed and we question our significance.

Truth is, our feelings either go plummeting down the rabbit hole or are skyrocketed towards infinity.

I think I exaggerated a little. But oh, isn’t that the problem?

I think I have had my fair share of loneliness and lows. If you know me personally, you know that I undergo frequent mood swings. But I swear on my life, not once have I felt suicidal.

I am not a very positive person but I am too much in love with the idea of living.
But it is also true that I have not been through what other individuals have gone through.
I might not have gone through the worst and you might have but think of this,
what’s the worse that you have been through?

Physical Abuse? Emotional Abuse? Rape?
Heart-break? Depression? Anxiety Attacks?

Talk about it. IT IS OKAY to talk about it. Don’t take that burden. It is not yours to carry.

Be selfish. It is YOUR life. And there is no justification whatsoever to end it. I am not giving you the fluff. Remember, there will be times when you will think lowly of your life. But,


A body of million suns and moons,
A body of bones and flesh and hope,
A body of thousand dreams and love,
A body of wisdom and doubt,
A body of desire and longing,
A body of stardust and soul,
A body of sanctity and purity,
are beautiful.
carry a fire, a spark,
which is so bright and strong,
that no one can get to.
No one but,

Some Illustrations from the book. Made by an absolutely brilliant artist – Ghana.

You can read the book at The Story of a Suicide

And here’s the link to the audio book: The Story of a Suicide

I just came across this beautiful story of an individual who has managed to keep that flame burning. It is a story of an individual called Partth Thakur. I feel compelled to mention him here because he is one glorious example He runs something called The Wishing Factory.

You can read his feature on the Humans of Bombay page: Click here.

The Picture of Dorian Gray – Oscar Wilde

The Picture of Dorian Gray – Oscar Wilde

“An Illusion”

“The fashionable substitute for belief”

“You are a sceptic”
“Never! Scepticism is the beginning of faith”

“What are you?”
“To define is to limit”

“Give me a clue”
“Threads snap. You would lose your way in the labyrinth”

“You bewilder me. Let us talk of someone else”
“Our host is a delightful topic. Years ago he was christened Prince Charming”


If you have been a curious soul; you would have come across this name quite a few times.
If not; you just did.

Dorian Gray is the protagonist of the book. The book follows his journey from being a handsome young man to being a handsome young adversary.

It all starts when Basil Hallward draws a portrait of a man which would turn out to be best painting he will ever paint and the inception of something that he would later realise as his grave mistake.
When Dorian first witnesses this portrait; he is left in awe. His beauty was always the talk of the people around him and the compliments always kept pouring in but when he first got acquainted with his beauty; it baffled him. But then thanks to the extremely influential Lord Henry Wotton a bitter-sweet feeling grows on him and then leaves a foul taste that will never let him be.

The body sins once,and has done with its sin, for action is a mode of purification. Nothing remains then but the recollection of a pleasure,or the luxury of regret.
The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it. Resist it, and your soul grows sick with longing for the things it has forbidden to itself, with desire for what its monstrous laws have made monstrous and unlawful.


At that very moment, Dorian wishes anything but this. To keep his youth. To not grow old and wither and die.


For that-for that- I would give everything! Yes, there is nothing in the whole world I would not give! I would give my soul for that!

In a nutshell, the book follows the journey of Dorian Gray as he goes on a journey of various experiences as a result of his wish being granted.

But it would be a sin to explain this in a nutshell. It is so much more that what meets the eye.

The Picture of Dorian Gray takes you on a journey of self-reflection and assessment.

We, humans, have a strange notion of morality. This book strikes the right chords to make us re-think on that.

Nothing scares us more than the things that we don’t say.

I read this quote somewhere and it is still there with my; maybe in my gallery waiting for its turn to become the wallpaper again.

And a picture indeed speaks a thousand words.

Dorian doesn’t realize what he has turned into until he stares at the painting hanging on the wall; once which was beautiful; a reflection of his youth which now remains a horrible nightmare turned true, carrying the soul of his, tainted by the deeds that he did.


Why should you not read it?

There is a very simple reason to this question. This book is not for entertainment. If you happen to start reading it; devote your time to it. The language in the book is high-end and magical. You will be easily influenced by the characters and the things that they say. The book is influential.

Are you one of those who search on Google or Goodreads for quotes to match your mood?
For quotes to make your profile picture or Instagram upload or a tweet look even better?
This book is for you.

Oscar Wilde has been known for his writings and rebellious attitude. His words found a rather odd place to fit it.

Explore one of his best works.

Here are few excerpts from the book that appealed to me.


Women, as some witty Frenchman once put it, inspire us with the desire to do masterpieces, and always prevent us from carrying them out.

Good resolutions are useless attempts to interfere with scientific laws. Their origin is pure vanity. Their result is absolutely nil. They give us, now and then, some of those luxurious sterile emotions that have a certain charm for the weak. That is all that can be said for them. They are simply cheques that men draw on a bank where they have no account.

Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul.

Favourite Chapter: XVII


In case you want to buy it:

Amazon /Flipkart/Snapdeal

If you’re from Bangalore; you can lend it from me!


Post Office – Charles Bukowski

Post Office – Charles Bukowski

In the morning it was morning and I was still alive.
Maybe I’ll write a novel, I thought.
And then I did.

Henry Chinaski is a real badass.

Who is Henry Chinaski?
Henry would be Charles’ fictional alter ego and rightly so.

Five words to describe him?

Drunkard. Sarcastic. Cocky. Lousy. Foul-mouthed.


Post Office manages to capture all the emotions that have been left out in the tales of Love and “Happily Ever After”. It will take you to a ride and into the soul of Henry, and when you are there; you will feel extremely ordinary and mundane. Because that’s how it is.

The book revolves around the times when Henry used to work in a Post Office. It follows him to his stints at drinking, love, marriage and betting (not in the same order).

I enjoyed the book because I laid my hands on a type of a book I’ve never read before. It is dark, direct and bold.

Read the book for its offbeat writing style. You will rarely see a writer not give a shit about the readers and writing just because he wants to. And if he is going to do so, he will do it his way. Read it for a glimpse into the low-life world, the damp barn, cheap booze, afternoons spent in hangover and sex. Read it to see how a writer evolves and my dear Indian readers; read it because you will be introduced to a new kind of writer. A writer who doesn’t give a shit what you want to read, a writer who knows no sugar-coating and a writer who doesn’t write to please. Such is Post Office; Charles’ first book.

Why not read it?

Frankly, If you are not into reading or if you read but don’t like taking risks (which I cannot believe would be possible); you might find it mundane and boring. It is not magic, not unicorns or snowflakes. It is how our lives are. Moments of sheer pleasure and joy sandwiched in loads of ordinary.

Also, this book is not for the people who don’t like profanity or boldness as other would call. It is not for children. 

Here’s an excerpt from the book for you to understand the content and context.


Excerpt from Post Office
You can buy it from here



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